*Alesana*

Congratulations, I Hate You


no one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are where you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
but don't expect me to be happy for you
and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity...I hate your pity

taste your vanity and its sweet bitterness
as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams
...you took them all...
I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride

beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries

suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
disgust lies deep within your empty gaze...

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

my envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I'll tear off your face to see your smile.

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

The Last Three Letters

dearest love,
I hope this message finds you well
as these endless thoughts drip from my soul
every single word secretly paints a fairytale
of when we will melt into one...

eyes (I am so scared...)
forfeit sight to the pain (so scared...)
cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
as I cling to memories of you (I need you with me)

were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?

it's me again,
is it me or am I wrong to be concerned?
will the beauty of your pen ever cross my eyes again?
was this all a lie? why?

were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?

make it stop, make this pounding in my head stop
fill my lungs with air, give me one more day to make her dreams come true
she understands right? that I'm not coming back...
she understands right? that I'm not coming back...
make it stop, make the pounding stop
I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back...
I don't know what happened...who would have thought my life would end up like this?
I didn't mean to hurt her, not hurt her like this...I can't feel my legs
I can't feel my legs and I can't even cry...how could somebody die like this?

if my words ever reach you I'll assume you don't care
never knew that silence could cut so deep or that you could twist the blade
now I curse all of your beautiful lies..
I love you and goodbye...

were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?

cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
as I cling to my memories of you...

Apology

Sweat drips in my eyes
screams of lust we cry
tonight you are everything
you're everything...
you're everything to me no more
as I wake from this perfect dream
I'll escape from Eden's walls
can I not stay and live this lie?
go away and I'll think only of myself

And to think that you would not be scared
or surprised if I'd severed all these ties
this is the end...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

I feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions...
would this be the same?
broken pieces will not mend to save our past now...go away...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

Now we must let go
urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears
I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

Goodbye, Goodnight, For Good



Help me to sleep...

Jealousy rears its ugly head
I won't forget the things you said before you turned your back
Goodbye, goodnight, for good...remember my face when you feel the pain
Say goodbye...

Now I'll fight with my eyes closed for the things I've let go
Sweet breath escapes...choke on the lies that were your last goodbye
Hear my voice as you sleep...
Sleep tight, goodnight...choke on the lies that were your last goodbye

Goodbye helps me to sleep without your memories
And my shattered dreams collect dust on what used to be a lie
It haunts me no more and now you're gone, you've left me alone
I wasn't wrong to feel this way inside so goodbye, goodnight, for good

Now I'll fight with my eyes closed for the things I've let go
Sweet breath escapes...choke on the lies that were your last goodbye
Hear my voice as you sleep...
Sleep tight, goodnight...choke on the lies that were your last...

I find pleasure in the taste of your decay
I anxiously watch you fade away

I can't explain what's happening inside of me
I refuse to fight you anymore
All I know is I have to make sure...make sure you never wake up again

Soft flesh gives way to trembling hand...

beautiful eyes are sewn shut
searing thread suffocates the light

Red And Dying Evening

you've taken the last of me
the god's of your innocence shall not protect you from the hate of my wrath
you've taken the last of me... blame the end on yourself
you deserve each tear that falls
scratch out your eyes

the blood will drown in red and I will leave you for dead
a lovely evening draped in regret
the shadow of justice now engulfs you
as cold hands reap the pain they've sewn
you've taken the last of me
blame the end on yourself
you deserve each tear that falls
scratch out your eyes

the blood will drown in red and I will leave you for dead
a lovely evening draped in regret
Forever gone
the taste of your death replaced the smell of your breath
a lovely evening draped in regret

suffocate your will to live with my pain
you were so easily seduced by greed
you could never feel my calloused hands closing around your throat
taste your loss
wake into the nightmare that has become our love
may your screams never cease
you've taken the last of me

Ambrosia

a touch of poison seals my fate
the dawn echoes the night with my glory...the sun himself honors me

once king of roses, now lord of gold
blessed with the gift of gilded touch
the Gods themselves envy my hand
fate wields its knife to cut the thread

I curse the day my dream became my descent
suddenly I long for you, my only love

in my perfection I have no want
a folly as fatal as sin...
yet eyes still glint with greed untold
...has now become the end of me

I curse the day my dream became my descent
suddenly I long for you, my only love

have I not earned this, the gift of beauty within?
how selfish were the Gods to keep their riches from my rightful treasure?
I truly have become one of them...my fatal flaw

oh yeah! Ive got her hook, line, and sinker!
thanks to me, shes her own new necklace!
now shes good as gold!

I curse the day my dream became my descent
suddenly I long for you, my only love

...cut the thread...

This Conversation Is Over


take everything away from me silent angel...

apathy cries out from your lungs, indifference reeks of fiction
time will tell how far you will go
I can't see why you'd run and hide excluding such complacence
as tears rain from bloodshot eyes

take everything away from me silent angel
leave me nothing to remind me of this time now lost

the air now reeks with the presence of your vile voice
as your smile masks the advance you keep
...I am not your trophy...
the air now reeks with the presence of your vile voice
as your smile masks the advance you keep
...I am not your trophy...

please try to say more carefully that you no longer need me
this back and forth is killing me
the only eyes you'll look into are those in your reflection
you are the means to my end

this conversation is over, it's over...
your truth is a deception meant to poison me

take everything away from me silent angel
leave me nothing to remind me of this time now lost

I can't seem to believe that you ever cared for me
...this conversation is over...
your empty words now drift away as fragile whispers
I saw the day when the fire left your eyes, your tongue fell still
your treason is silence...
take everything away from me silent angel
leave me nothing to remind me of this time now lost